It's been just about 18 months since I have posted here....why?
Heck in the past years if I sneezed four times in a row, I'd post about it.
So much has happened in the past year and a half, why not write about it?
Been thinking about it for a long time and I think I have pin pointed a few
events in this timeline that may have had an impact on my blogging. I will say one easy event to identify is me being let go from the Church I helped start and served for over 20 years. I was the arts director at our downtown Naperville campus.I was given notice when we were shutting down for a move into a new facility. I was told I was up fro the full time position but it would be up to the new campus pastor coming in. He takes me out for coffee to let me know that I was not up for the position. "We need someone who can relate to the college kids and we know that's not in your skill set" Huh? I have the terminal humor of a 7th grader.I felt old and useless.I was not going to go to my old friends and plea my case but after a few months I at least tried to explain how hurt I was that I was just tossed aside.Nothing but a
"Your departure should have been praised cause you did a great job, not feel like a punch in the gut". That was it....okay then.All they talk about is Church planting with their friends but what if one of your friends isn't good enough or young enough?
I haven't been to my home Church in an year and a half and only one staff member stayed in contact with me for about a month, after that? Nada...
I told many people that I wasn't phased that much, heck I even told Kim I wasn't phased that much. I'll say...I was phased.
How odd is this? I have many friends. I have had many people hunt me down after a service just to say they wish they could play like me or that my enthusiasm on stage is fun to see. I don't say this in a prideful way, I'm just saying, I know I can play. I'm not doubting my abilities, I'm just completely baffled that my years of friendship and service has been so quickly dismissed.
There are so many things that have taken place and I will get to several more in the near future. This first post is just something I had to get off my chest.
Here's to an interesting 2012
2 comments:
Dude - you got burned, royally. That's enough to put anybody into a funk. It's hard to remember, but even though we're going through human space, we live in God space. What happens here is getting us prepared for there. Hard to remember, sometimes, but it's still true.
On the other hand, I see a blog entry from you just five and a half months ago, on July 31. So I'm gonna bust your chops for that and send you back to remedial counting. Naaah, I won't do that.
Keep the faith, keep on doing good and doing well. Stuff hurts, and you got hurt big-time. But there can be learning and growth through the pain. It can take a long time for the perspective needed to see the benefit, and it might not happen this side of eternity.
Keep the faith.
Wow....yeah, I'm was thinking about when it all went down. The number stuck in my head.
You are correct .
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